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Clannad & Clannad After Story [23 Jul 2010|01:52pm] Those of you who pay attention to my Facebook posts know that I've been watching the anime Clannad recently. It's straight up shoujo so it's not something I would normally watch... but I was in the mood for something romantic and it certainly fits the bill. All the characters are amusing and likable (at least in my opinion) and it's a very down-to-earth plot. The anime follows Nagisa Furukawa, a shy, quiet girl who's poor health forced her to repeat her senior year in high school. She meets a boy, Tomoya Okazaki, who's a delinquent with an abusive, alcoholic father whom he doesn't get along with very well. I've never seen an anime that actually accounted for alcoholism and emotional abuse in families before, I was a bit surprised. I'm currently watching Clannad: After Story which is the second arc of the series... I'm enjoying it quite a bit. I know quite a few of you who read my LiveJournal and follow my Facebook posts are into anime and while I know most of the boys won't bother watching it (even though they should because it'd give them a few pointers), I'm sure most of you girls would enjoy it. If you get the chance to watch it, I high recommend taking that chance. feed the demon

Drifting Away... [13 May 2010|02:28pm] [ mood | sad ] Why is it that people always drift apart? I realize that everyone has different lives and different things they want to do with those lives, it just... it seems like you can be best friends with someone one day and then, slowly but surely, they stop talking to you... they stop trying to communicate with you and your just left wondering... why? I know I'm hard to get along with sometimes (well, most of the time really) but, why is it that I'm always the one who has to reach out to everyone else? Why is it that I seem to be so easy to forget or ignore? It's always been like this with my family and with my friends. It makes me wonder if I'm just not someone that they want to keep in their lives, like I'm just an amusing acquaintance and, as soon as life gets in the way, I'm not worth the trouble to talking to. Yet here I am, still trying to reach out to people whose actions scream that they don't want me anymore. People seem to think that I enjoy being alone but I hate it, it scares me. I think about it everyday... "what if I got kidnapped or attacked on my walk this morning? Would anyone notice? Would anyone really care?" or "what if someone broke into my house and murdered me in my sleep? Who would know? No one would notice for days." I hate being alone. It's why I go visit my mom and dad every weekend... it's why I try to keep in touch with my friends long after they seem to have forgotten me. It makes me wonder what's so wrong with me that no one wants to keep me around very long. I often think my family puts up with me because they have to... except DJ who doesn't really have to so he barely speaks to me at all. I just wish that I could have my friends back... I wish I could have my family back with everyone getting together and getting along. I suppose wishing is a wasted effort though... I don't see a genie anywhere around here and I don't hear my phone ringing just because a friend of mine "just wanted to talk". I wish people would just stop drifting away... but I don't have the heart to try to tie anyone to me. (By the way Jen, this little rant does not apply to you in anyway so don't worry.) 2 pints of blood|feed the demon

Summary of Imagine [15 Nov 2009|07:30pm] [ mood | restless ] As some of you may know, I've been working on a story called Imagine for the past couple of months. I haven't posted it online because it's the story I intend turn into my first published work (if I can ever finish it). I want more people to read it though and let me know what they think. I'm going to post a summary here and if you like the premise and would like to read the story, e-mail me or message me and I'll send you a chapter or two. [I][B]Sky Miller was your basic, average high school student. He was attractive, unwillingly popular, and constantly bored by the people around him. He knew being the new kid at school was going to be interesting, but he never expected it to flip his world upside-down. Kaira Slyph was the strong, silent type, always carefully avoiding being the center of attention. Hiding from a past she can't remember, she's content to hide behind a wall of obscurity,until a new student shows up and drags her out of hiding. Will their bond and Kaira's own special gift be enough to save them from a truth that seeks to destroy them both?[/B][/I] I know, it's not a very good summary... maybe after some of you read a bit of it you can make some suggestions? lol feed the demon

Moving On... [12 Nov 2009|01:14am] [ mood | hopeful ] Well, I am now officially out of the Telephone Inquiry unit and into the Written Correspondence unit at work. On the one hand, I will miss the people in TI... they were definately some of the best co-workers I've ever had. On the other hand, I hated taking public calls, even for only a few hours, so in the end I'm going to be a lot less stressed out that I was in TI. I start training tomorrow which should be interesting. Plus, it'll be nice to be able to listen to my iPod once I get through with training. feed the demon

Happiness is... [04 Oct 2009|03:15pm] [ mood | content ] ...elusive and surprisingly difficult to attain... unless you just don't give a shit. Maybe the world is so screwed up because people are so busy trying to find happiness that they can't see it when it's right in front of them. Maybe we all just need to stop and take time to enjoy a few moments of peace and quiet. I've decided I'm going to start going into downtown Portsmouth and I'm going to sit at Breaking New Grounds, get myself a cup of tea and just sit, relax and read a book... or work on a story... something just to unwind. Plus, it'll give me a chance to get out and walk around... I could use some fresh air some of the time I think. I'm going to sit there and enjoy what I have at this moment... if happiness wants me, it can come find me. feed the demon

Overtime Sucks [22 Sep 2009|01:08pm] [ mood | exhausted ] I'm so tired these days. I've been forced to work 2 hours overtime every day to train on a new task... unfortunately that means I have 2 hours less than I usually do to do stuff. I barely had time to do laundry today. It'll be done about 10 minutes before I need to leave for work. I get less sleep when I'm working my normal hours yet I feel more awake... right now I feel exhausted. I can't wait for this mandatory overtime to end. feed the demon

Forgotten [19 Sep 2009|07:28pm] [ mood | depressed ] Why am I so easy to forget about? Seriously? My family forgets my birthday (yet remember my brother's which is only 22 days later), my friends make plans with me then "forget" to show up. My mother forgot about me today... we were supposed to go to the Rochester Fair with my step-sister, brother, nephew, and a few other people... she never told me what time to meet her and I didn't even know she was still going until I got a weird voicemail from Crystal (my step-sister) and called my dad to find out if mom was going somewhere... come to find out her and DJ had left for the fair... she never called me. So I went to her house figuring I'd still have dinner... I waited about 3 hours... she never came home. Now I'm at my dad's, watching TV and waiting for dad to bring me back food. Seriously, I just wanna know what it is about me that people seem to think it's ok to forget about me and leave me out of things? feed the demon

People piss me off [07 Sep 2009|02:25pm] So, I'm sitting in the Fox Run mall's over-crowded food court because a friend of mine's supposed to be meeting me here and they are 25 minutes late. Five more minutes and I'm going to wander around alone. Posted via LiveJournal.app. 1 pint of blood|feed the demon

People piss me off [07 Sep 2009|02:25pm] So, I'm sitting in the Fox Run mall's over-crowded food court because a friend of mine's supposed to be meeting me here and they are 25 minutes late. Five more minutes and I'm going to wander around alone. Posted via LiveJournal.app. feed the demon

Starting My Week Off Right [22 Aug 2009|04:17pm] I'm hanging out at my mom's house, waiting for dinner to be ready. I'm so happy I asked for the week off, it'll be nice. Posted via LiveJournal.app. feed the demon

I'm Still Alive... In Case You Were Wondering [06 Aug 2009|03:11pm] [ mood | busy ] That's right, dispite the fact that I haven't posted anything on here since November, I am indeed still alive and well. I've been kind of busy with work and trying to re-arrange and fix various aspects of my life. So far it's going well. I'm 22 now (yay me!... it wasn't really a very big deal). I still work at the same job though now I'm not talking to the public ALL the time. Unfortunately, my boss is an idiot who insists on making everything way more complicated and inefficient then it needs to be but *shrug* what can I do. I now live at a different apartment with a much better atmosphere than my last place. I now live on Route 1 in Portsmouth with one of my co-workers/friends... it's a very nice and entertaining arrangement. I'm saving a lot of money (especially on rent and gas). I'm still obsessed with all things anime and manga... was so happy to see Cut has finally been released in the U.S. ^-^ I love that manga. Just bought the box-set of both seasons of Victorian Romance Emma which is an exceptionally entertaining anime that I think everyone should watch (Jess would probably adore it). I'm also slowly collecting the VHS tapes of Magic User's Club which is an old-school anime that Beth actually got me interested in and that I happened to spot in Bull Moose in Portsmouth one day when I was browsing. I currently own tapes 2-6 and tape 1 is on its way from Amazon with Victorian Romance Emma... hopefully I'll have them soon. I'm working on a new story called Imagine which will, hopefully, be good enough to publish by the time I get through with it. At least I know the story-line is definately original (at least I've never heard of anything like it before). Now I'm off to work for another 8.5 hours. Ja ne! Note to self: Change avatars again! 5 pints of blood|feed the demon

Happiness ^-^ [13 Nov 2008|12:58pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] I have my laptop back ^-^ I picked it up today from Best Buy good as new... I'm super happy now. I was completely at a loss for what to do without it. In other news, I'll be going to my very first Ala-non meeting this coming Wednesday... hopefully it'll help me deal with my mother's drinking problem a bit better. I'm currently trying to think of ways to improve my life. I'd really like to get out more and make some new friends and get to know some new people. It's kind of depressing to just sit around all day and do nothing but watch TV. Problem is, because I don't drink and I tend to have a negative view of alcohol, I tend to avoid places that sell it, of course, those are the places most people hang out in. I've toyed with the idea of going into downtown Portsmouth and sitting with my laptop outside on of the little cafes and seeing if anyone has the guts to sit down and talk to me... but with my luck, no one would and I'd end up looking like an idiot (not that I don't look like an idiot already but still...). I've already gained a little more confidence for myself after having recently mastered being able to read and write the entire basic Japanese alphabet (consisting of hirigana and katakana)... I haven't quite gotten into kanji yet and am currently dreading ever getting there. I have mastered basic sentance structure too... I now understand the basic layout of Japanese sentances and have learned most of the particles. I'm still working on verb conjugation (and trying to take that as slowly as possible because it tends to make my head spin) and I just recently learned i-adjectives. The really great part is that I learned all that from a video game... gotta love the Nintendo DS. I think that's pretty much all I have to talk about for the moment. Ja ne! 5 pints of blood|feed the demon

Woes, Wonders, and Worries [09 Nov 2008|01:21pm] So, right now I'm at my dad's house and I'm bored out of my mind. I would normally be watching something on my laptop, however, that wonderful piece of machinary was rendered useless when I accidently left one of my headphones on the keyboard and went to close the laptop without realizing it. Naturally, the headphone cracked the screen and the lcd monitor died (the headphone didn't survive the encounter either). With the monitor of my laptop destroyed, I was forced to bring my beloved computer to Best Buy last Tuesday so they could send it out to get a new monitor put on... which will take about two weeks T-T. Needless to say, I am currently going through laptop withdrawal, thankfully I was rescued when my dad allowed me to borrow my old laptop until my new one is returned. Also, for those of you who care, I am now cured of Lyme disease. I took my last pill last Saturday. This Saturday I went to a surprise birthday party for my step-father, John. It was a rather amusing party and rather eventful as well. Three things happened that night that I thought I'd never live to see... 1) John actually being surprised (I had thought he'd have figured it out a long time ago what they were all planning for him), 2) John willingly slow-dancing with my mother (which I recorded on my cell phone given the fact it may never happen again), and 3) John singing karaoke (granted the song he choose only had two words in it and he missed the first one, but still...). Thankfully, my mother remained herself while DJ and I were at the party... though she was most definately drunk when she called me later on that night. Her drinking has finally gotten way out of hand and drastic measures need to be taken. A women I work with recommended I look up "alca-non" (?) and dad recommended the same thing later as well. Apparently they're a support group for families and friends of alcoholics and help them figure out how to help the alcoholic get sober again. For those of you who have ever met my mother, she's a wonderful person... when she's sober. When she's drunk she becomes a completely different person all together... kind of like Jekyll and Hyde (except without the homicidal monster). My mom has low self-esteem and when she's drunk it becomes even more apparent, she gets jealous easily over things that really shouldn't effect her so much. She calls my brother and I and tells us things we never need to hear. She claims we love our step-mother more than her and makes us feel guilty. Neither DJ nor I like to be around her when she's been drinking... she's no fun and we shouldn't have to deal with it. 2 pints of blood|feed the demon

[26 Oct 2008|05:28pm] Hey everyone, in case you were wondering, I am still alive. I can now move my arm a lot more than I could before. Still taking meds for my Lyme disease... but I only need to take it for another 7 days. In the meantime I'm trying to kill a serious case of writer's block, fight off a cold, and plan an anime veiwing/Halloween party for the anime group I run. I'm having everyone bring the first disc of their two favorite anime series then we're going to watch one episode from each disc. I'm providing disc one of Kyo Kara Maoh and Ouran Gakuen Host Club. It should be an interesting day. 2 pints of blood|feed the demon

Blah [06 Oct 2008|02:12pm] [ mood | tired ] I'm just batting 1,000 lately. First I end up with Lyme disease (and currently can't extend my left arm), then I catch a cold on top of that, now my leg hurts when I walk. I really really don't want to go to work today but I had to take last Thursday off so I could see a doctor about my arm and I really can't afford to take another day off. *sigh* I can't win. 4 pints of blood|feed the demon

Voice [08 Sep 2008|03:06pm] Lately, I've been feeling very... alone. Then again, I've pretty much felt like that my whole life. I say things, and no one seems to hear me... or if they do hear me, they only hear what they want. People think they know me, they think they know who I am, how I think and what I feel... when really, no one knows me at all. I'm never really happy and I'm always bored. I pretend to smile and laugh because people bother me when I don't. I want to be left alone but at the same time, I don't. I have this horrible feeling of not belonging. I feel like I'm in the wrong place... that I shouldn't be where I am or who I am... that I was meant to be born somewhere else and something went horribly wrong. I feel so wrong here... trapped. I keep banging and clawing at the walls of a cage I can't see and I can't get out. I feel like I'm just going to keep smashing against it until I fall down in exhaustion and die. I'm screaming at the top of my lungs and no one hears me. People keep telling me that it's all in my head... that I'm just unhappy so I'm twisting it into this feeling of not belonging. They don't feel it... this horrible weight on my heart like it's being crushed or smothered. I feel like I'm chained to the bottom of a cave, staring up at the clear blue sky above me and seeing every hand and foothold on the wall that I could use to climb safely towards it, but unable to break the chains that hold me back. And no one seems to notice... no one tries to help me. They all stand there telling me that I should just give up and do this or that instead... I'm so tired of the sky being so high and so far away... I'm so tired of trying to fight my way free alone... I wish they would just listen to me. 1 pint of blood|feed the demon

Because I felt like it... [25 Aug 2008|02:40pm] [ mood | amused ] Have you ever... +Had a serious illness? Not really, just a 2nd degree sunburn once +Been happy about someones death? I wouldn't say happy, more like relieved...I don't like people dying but I can't say that I miss the person very much. +Killed an animal? I think I may have hit a squirrel or chipmunk once with my car +Been sexually attracted to a cartoon character? Not "sexually" attracted +Caused a riot? No +Taken part in a riot? No +Eaten a bug? Definately not, not even when I was little +Been on stage? Once or twice, most recently reading a poem I wrote and doing karaoke at Dad & Theresa's wedding +Joined a gang? No, I'm not that stupid. +Smoked? No, it's a dirty, disgusting habit that kills the people who do it and their loved ones...it's not worth it. +Drank? Nope, another disgusting habit that destroys your brain and alters your personality...again, not worth it +Stolen? Some cheap plastic jewelery from my Aunt once...it was in the play area and I knew they'd never miss it, but that was when I was little. +Used someone? Not to my knowledge, but if I did without realizing it, I'm sorry. +Wished to die? Numerous times. +Streaked? Nope, and I doubt anyone would be able to get me to either. +Stalked someone online? You can't actually stalk someone online, but there are people I check up on often. +Taken pills? Only when perscribed by a doctor...drugs are another worthless habit...I like by brain just the way it is thanks. +Take a survey? Yeah +Worked on a farm? No. +Ran half a mile? I don't run. +Juggled spatulas? Umm...no. +Recorded a rap album? No...I don't even like most rap. +Stayed up to catch Santa Claus? Never actually, not even when I was little. +Bought a bowling alley? No...if I had enough money to buy a bowling alley...I'd use the money to go to Japan instead. +Owned a zombie film? Nope This one's because I'm bored... 01. I miss somebody right now* [Jessica! Come back!] 02. I don't watch much TV these days* [Too busy writing fanfics and trying to improve my life.] 03. I love olives 04. I love sleeping* [Sleeping is my favorite sport ^-^] 05. I own lots of books* [Lots and lots of books, mostly manga though] 06. I wear glasses and contact lenses* [Both but I usually wear glasses 07. I love to play video games* [I adore Harvest Moon DS Cute... Skye is adorable] 08. I've tried pot 09. I've watched porn movies* [*sigh* I miss Twinkle Angel] 10. I have been in a threesome 11. I am a virgin.* [Relationships need to be based on more than sex] 12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy* [There are a few exceptions, but in general yes] 13. I have acne free skin 14. I supported John Kerry* [There were thinkgs I liked and disliked about him but he was better than Bush] 15. I curse frequently* [Probably more than I should] 16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year* [Definately] 17. I have a hobby* [Writing! Reading! Anime!!] 18. I am confused* [Often] 19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me 20. I'm really, really smart* [Everyone's really smart at something...not sure what mine is yet though] 21. I've failed a class* [A few actually] 22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to admit 23. I hate the rain 24. I'm paranoid at times 25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scarring 26. I need money right now* [I always need money] 27. I love Sushi 28. I talk really really fast* [If I'm excited or nervous, yes] 29. I have fresh breath in the morning 30. I have semi-long hair 31. I have lost money in Las Vegas 32. I have at least one Brother AND/OR Sister* [Unfortunately, I have a younger brother] 33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S. 34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis* [Everytime I take a shower] 35. I have a twin 36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past* [Fake nails but it was only so all my nails would be even] 37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.* [May the person who invented that wonderful device live a full and happy life] 38. I like the way I look sometimes* [Especially right now, I'm extreamly pleased with my new haircut] 39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months 40. I know how to do cornrows 41. I am usually pessimistic* [Read my poems... that should answer this question] 42. I have a lot of mood swings* [At times, yes] 43. I think prostitution should be legalized 44. I think Britney Spears is hot 45. I have cheated on my significant other in the past year 46. I have a hidden talent 47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have 48. I think that I'm popular 49. I am currently single* [Not that that's a bad thing... though it's not good either] 50. I have kissed someone of the same sex* [I actually have, yes] 51. I enjoy talking on the phone 52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants 53. I love to shop* [This only applies to book stores and Best Buy] 54. I would rather shop than eat 55. I would classify myself as ghetto 56. I love the dentist 57. I'm obsessed with Livejournal* [Who isn't?] 58. I don't hate anyone* [I may not feel comfortable around everyone but I certainly don't hate anyone] 59. I'm a pretty good dancer* [When in the comfort of my own room] 60. I have regrets 61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother 62. I have a cell phone* [And it's pretty] 63. I believe in God 64. I watch MTV on a daily basis 65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months 66. I love drama* [In books, yes... in real life, no] 67. I have never been in a real relationship before* [Not what I'd consider a "real" relationship anyway] 68. I've rejected someone before* [I felt bad about it too] 69. I currently have a crush on someone* [I definately have a crush on someone] 70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life* [My life calender is completely blank at this point] 71. I want to have children in the future* [Only if they're adopted] 72. I have changed a diaper before 73. I've been stopped by a cop* [For speeding and ended up with no license for a month] 74. I bite my nails* [It's a bad habit, I know] 75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club 76. I am not allergic to anything 77. I have a lot to learn* [Everyone does] 78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger 79. I love horror movies 80. I am very shy around the opposite sex* [When meeting them in person, yeah] 81. I am online 24/7* [Close enough] 82. I have at least 5 away messages saved* [The default ones just don't cover the intricasies of being Away] 83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before 84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past 85. I own the "South Park" movie 86. I have avoided assignments to be on Livejournal* [Only when I was positive I'd still be able to get them in on time] 87. I love chinese food* [Chicken and Broccoli ^-^] 88. I enjoy some country music 90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza* [Their pizza is definately on my 'best' list] 91. I overanalyze* [Everything] 92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist 93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career 94. I am addicted to something* [Anime, manga, writing, the comupter...the list of narcotics goes on and on lol] 95. I wish I was taller 96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy/get a costume* [Candy's always a plus] 97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it 98. I have dated a close friend's ex 99. I've broken a bone 100. I have thrown up as a result of alcohol 101. I have snuck out of my house before* [Once when I was seriously considering running away] 102. I'm happy as of this moment* [As happy as I can be at this moment anyway] 2 pints of blood|feed the demon

More Getting Yanked Around At Work [21 Jun 2008|12:16pm] [ mood | annoyed ] I am so annoyed with my work right now... you have no idea. Perhaps I should explain exactly what has been going on these last two weeks. The Monday before last, as some of you know, I was transferred, without notice, to Telephone Inquiry. Naturally, I was pissed. The rest of that week I had training and I complained often to people in my training class and people I usually talk to at work. That Friday, our unit manager, Lisa, came back from maternity leave and we talked to her. She asked what we thought of training and I told her it was "boring as all hell". Then she wanted to talk to me alone about my negative feelings towards the department. I was under a lot of stress at the time and it had been such a sudden move and I was getting frustrated with one of the people in my class that I just had no time to think about and process everything. I kind of got upset and cried in her office (she claimed yesterday that I had been yelling which was a load of bs... I never once raised my voice while in that building). Anyway, so that's how I ended that Friday. Then the following Monday (this past Monday), I was sitting in my training class, trying to learn something when my old unit manager from DR, Jamie, walked in and said he wanted to talk to me. So I got up and followed him to his office where he proceeded to give a lecture about my attitude and how I couldn't leave TI and that I need to just suck it up and get used to it. So I did. I stopped complaining (out loud anyway) and I tried to just get used to being there. So I started to get excited about trying it and starting to think "alright, I can do this." Then last night, I went into Lisa's office to ask if she had a headset that wrapped around the ear instead of the headband ones (which keep sliding around on my head), and she tells me that they filed paperwork to send me back to DR... without even asking me if that's still what I wanted. After lecturing me about how I HAD to at least try it and get used to it, they go and try to send me back. It just pisses me off that they go and tell me one thing and then do another. It just completely pissed me off. I told them that they told me I had to try TI so when they called me in to ask me whether I wanted to go back to DR again or not I told them I wanted to try TI... that I finally wrapped my mind around being there, I've settled in to being there and I'm going to do what they told me to do and deal with it. 2 pints of blood|feed the demon

Updates [13 Jun 2008|10:17am] [ mood | amused ] So, I'm still stuck in TI against my will. Luckily, because of my dislike of talking on the phone, they aren't making me go onto phones yet (they were planning to get us all on the actual phone within the next two weeks, but I'm an exception). I picked out my alias and everything but I don't understand half the stuff I need to be able to find out or where to look for it so supposedly we'll be going over that today. I made myself a list of questions I want to ask. Now, getting off the subject of work, I just finished watching the first PV of Hyde's new endevour Vamps... I really liked it. I definately like the song more than the video but Hyde makes an adorable vampire and he was getting friendly with the mic at one point (him and his habit of sticking out his tongue). Anyway, for anyone interested, I'm posting the video below. The song is called "Love Addict" and it's by Hyde and Kaz's new group VAMPS. feed the demon

A Bad Night At Work [10 Jun 2008|10:31am] [ mood | annoyed ] Alright, most of you know that I had a wonderful three-day weekend last weekend. I took Friday off to go to Jessica's graduation but it rained so the graduation ceremony was held indoors which meant I couldn't go -_-'. I ended up spending most of the day out shopping with Theresa and then her, dad and I went to Jerry's in Sanford for dinner while DJ was working. On Saturday I got up at 7:00 am so that I could meet my mom at John's house at 8:00 and the two of us went to Long Sands beach in York. For the first few hours we were there, the fog was so thick we could barely see the ocean. We were just about to leave around noon when the fog cleared and the heat came. While we were sitting there, a photographer from York's local paper came by and took our picture (I whined to mom because I had my camera and was taking pictures myself and she had told me I wasn't allowed to take her picture). Sometime around 1:30 we started for home. We stopped to get ice cream at Angie's (a local ice cream shop in South Berwick near where one of my aunt's lives). Then we went to John's. Later that night we went outside and sat around. Just as it was getting dark Melissa and Lisa, John's lesbian neighbors came over to hang out. They're really really nice and I enjoy talking to them. Melissa and I connected instantly through a mutual love of Japan, Melissa actually lived there for five years from when she was 2 years old to when she was 6. My mom told Melissa I was a writer and now she's vowed to do all in her power to get my story published. I hope she succeeds, it'd be nice to see one of my books on a bookstore shelf after writing for so long. After talking for a while, we decided to light off fireworks... that was awesome. Then Melissa and Lisa headed home as did Kirk (John's other neighbor...he'd shown up to light off the last few fireworks) so I ended up heading home too. On Sunday I kidnapped Jess and her and I hung out in dad's pool... that was interesting (ne, Jessica?). I introduced her to the live action drama of Hana-Kimi... so many pretty boys all in one show ^-^. Then we went to see Kung Fu Panda and had a blast watching that. In fact, we pretty much at a blast all day... from swimming to the movie, to just sitting around talking in the movie theater (I am apparently chopped liver by the way lol). So, after having such a wonderful weekend, I was fully prepared to have an equally wonderful night at work (well, as wonderful a night as I could have at a job I hate) and was actually in a good mood for once. So I sit down at my desk and get all my stuff ready to go... stack my NCIC cases ready to qualify them and then Shaun comes over. Shaun used to be one of the team leaders in DR3 but she was recently promoted to assistant manager. Anyway, she comes over to my desk and tells me Jamie wants to talk to me. Now, I've been behind on my number quota recently and I would have made it last week if it hadn't been for the fact that name check's didn't run and I was unable to qualify eleven of my cases. So I figure Jamie's calling me in to talk about that so we get to an office he's hijacked in PC (Packet Control) (his real office is in DR5 so I have no idea what he was doing in PC but that's where he was). So I sit down and he goes, "You've been transferred to Telephone Inquiry." My good mood packed it's house up and moved to Guam. Those of you who've known me a long time, know that I hate talking on the phone. In fact, I loathe talking on the phone... to anyone. So, taking that into consideration, I was not happy to hear about my transfer. So Jamie asked me what I thought about it, and I told him, "I won't be good at it." and the bastard snapped at me "You won't with that attitude!". I tried to explain to him that I get anxiety attacks when I talk to strangers on the phone and I don't even talk to my family and friends on the phone unless I have to. His reply was simply, "You're going and there's nothing you can do about it." So Shaun led me out of the office and informed me that I took that news the best out of the three of us (us being myself, Natalie, and Jennifer). Apparently, Jennifer was the most upset by it. She found out the same day I did and she yelled at Jamie (which is probably why he snapped at me when I gave a negative response) and she was crying. I was pretty much numb to the whole situation. I briefly mourned the fact that I can never listen to my iPod at work again, but that was the extent of my outrage and the fact that I had such short notice. I was moved immediately after leaving Jamie's office and didn't even have time to pack my stuff until around 12:20 am and even then I forgot my nameplate so I have to go back to my old desk this afternoon and get it. I spent the first half of my time in TI reading their exeedingly boring manual, a big chunk of which is basically a paraphrased version of the DR manual (because a lot of TI's calls are centered around the forms we processed in DR). Then after lunch I got to sit with Pat (who was in my training class when I started at the NVC) and listen to her take calls. That was pretty interesting. I think I get to listen in to calls again for the first half of today and then I go into training for the second half. I need to pick an alias, we're not allowed to give our real names when we answer the phone. I'm not sure yet what I think of TI and I'm not sure if I'm going to like it there or not. I'm thinking of applying to be a team leader there though because TL's get paid more and I'm good at explaining things to other people so I think I'd be good at it. Anyway, that was my night... hopefully this one will be better (but I'm not betting on it). 1 pint of blood|feed the demon

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